I am only 21 when I know u

I am only 21 when I starts to know and understand u
An impossible thing that I never thought that would occur
But it happened.

As I walk along the road of growing up,
I learn and discover more.
Things that shock and disappointed me.
Slowly bite by bite I begin to realize
that I am only deceiving myself.

It's going to be 7 years.
I have waste enough time and tears
Time that has pass and gone forever
Tears that have drop and dry
Nothing can be retrieve

I have been waiting for nothing.

CNY

Happy Lunar New Year! Here comes the year of Snake.



This year has been a busy year, I have been to more relatives houses than before. Couldn't feel much atmosphere except being really busy preparing for CNY. Spring cleaning and buying goodies and stuff etc. .

However, I am glad everything is fine and everyone is happy. Though I could see my aunt truly tired and sick this year. She couldn't smile. Even though I make silly joke. She still look grumpy.  Couldn't blame her, she is sick and tired that she still need to do all the preparation. Luckily, her daughter is able to help her.

While today is Valentine's day as well. I well spent it with my friends over a dinner. Nothing beats better than having a home cook food. =)

Stay Cheerful!

Stand Up

Even if life is hard, don’t quit until the end
The sky will protect your side
Your footsteps are heavy, make some noise
You sink down and let out a sigh
But one more time, one more try

Look to the sky confidently
Now is just the beginning
Open your shoulders
Inside of you is someone like you
Don’t give up on your future even if it’s hard
Stand up, hold my hand, take the world

Like how petals fall when time passes
Clouds promise rain
Even if you’re struggling
It can change by whatever the sky wants
Don’t worry, never mind
Wait for that day

Look to the sky confidently
Now is just the beginning
Open your shoulders
Inside of you is someone like you
Don’t give up even if it’s hard, one more time
Stand up, hold my hand, stand up again (Stand up)

Stand up (Stand up)
Raise your head

Please don’t waver
Now is just the beginning
Open your shoulders
Don’t give up even if it’s hard, one more time
Stand up, hold my hand, stand up again

Observe and feel
Even if we’re different, my friend
You’re not alone, stand up again

12 years

It seems like it's just yesterday.
But you had left us for 12 years.
Till date the sorrow and pain of loss still follow
Specially today.

This is the day I woke up to find you gone.
Physically gone from our life.

It's shock and unbelievable when I hear the news.
How I wish someone would tell me this is a joke.
But the reality hit you hard and cold.

It's no joke, not a dream.
No amount of words can describe the emotion
Only the tears will tell

I'm so sorry for not treasuring you when you're around.
Not following your guidance you're there to advice.
And now you are gone.
Who will hold my hand and guide me?
Who will be there to give me advice?

12 years has gone by,
Tripping and falling, I have grow up
An adult but not a child you know before.

Still remembering your wish
Your expectation.
But I did not live up to it.

How I wish I could do better
How I wish I could do you proud
But I failed. Sorry.

I knew this it not what you wish to hear.

You are still waiting,
Waiting for all of us.
Still watching us from far above.

Wishing and calling upon us.
But we hear none.
Still moving around like a headless bee.



Forever missing you.

April

Be calm in arguing; for fierceness makes error a fault, and truth discourtesy.

- George Herbert

Laugh

Laugh when you face people who dislike you, they are only jealous.
Laugh when you face stress, it will soon be over.
Laugh when you’re embarrassed, it’s creates a life story you can tell.
Laugh when everyone else isn’t, they’ll want to be able to laugh like you do.

No Longer A Child

I'm no longer a child
But an adult

Someone who should think twice before
Acting or speaking

An adult who has ownself opinion and decision
I need to focus and move on
Not just standing at the crossroad again

Putting on my thinking cap
Looking around me
I saw the reality
But nothing I can do about it

Only to remind myself not to become like them
Not to lose my focus