In the Loving Memory of My Grandma

Aged 83 Departed on 17th Apirl 2011 Sunday 20:06 Sunday (lunar 15th of 3rd Month)

Dear Grandma,


From the day you admitted hospital till today burial, it has been 1 month.

Seeing you lying on the hospital bed suffering in pain has break many of your children and grandchildren hearts. Their hope of your recovery had been rises up when they saw you chirping happily away but never to their knowledge that it's the last time as you lapsed in and out of conscious and constantly in pain over the 3 week plus till you breathed your last breath.

I'm sorry grandma for not being by your side when you breathed your last breath. A 7 days wake might be long but after today we won't have any more chance to see you again.

How are you grandma? Knowing that you had left us forever as the thoughts of your new house at Chao Chu Kang Cemetery brings tears to everyone of us. The least I know we had accomplished the last task by completing the burial today.

Life is really short and suffering.
人生好苦，没意思。

Grandma, you had left us for another path but we will always remember you in our heart.

＂我的人生＂

＂我的人生只有两条路。要就干紧死，要不就活的精彩。”
By a 23 year old handicapped guy who played piano with his toes.

Goodbye 2010

Year 2010 has gone

Things has ended.
Another up and down year has gone by.
I've been through tears and laughters in the year.
Some things I've lost and gain
What's lost, it can no longer be recover
What's gain, it's there for us to treasure
Yet what's lay ahead it's still unknow. . .

As age catches up with me, I learned that things wont stay the same forever.
Hence, letting go as much as I can.
Though I can't say I'm carefree till the stage that nothing bothers me.
I do have my negative period and thoughts, which I'll disappear for awhile.

During this 2010, I've seen many things and personalities of people.
People who do things for the benefit of themselves.
People who only cares for themselves
People who are baised
People who has two sides
People who are cunning
People who are truely kind
Unforeseen things that happened.
The tough process of building a new place

Few are good which are hardly exists.
For a brand new year 2011,
I only wish to be more strong and wise.

Move

Be stronger my friend.

This is the reality.
It's the fact that you can't change.

So be strong
Be braver than others
Show it to everyone
That you can do it.

Shed no more tears
Move Move Move

Angry

Definately I'm angry now. But what can I do?
Just walk off? I knew I can't do that.
There're a lot more things I've to face.

Thinking of that, I really do not know what to do.
The worst has yet to come.

Heavy Body

Been working for the past few days physically. Body pretty tired but still alright in compare to others.
Yea fortunate. Sometime we should make a comparsion with others than we'll find that we're much more fortunate.
Or else most of the time we'll be complaining and grumbling.

Life is really "wu nia"

Begining & Ending of Life

Tonight I saw a toddler who just had her 1st birthday on this earthly world.
A little girl who is barely reach your knee cap, is walking unsteadyly, moving left to right as she walks her way through the people. Everyone is brighten up with the babyish behaviour of her. Couldn't speak a single word, there she goes "blah blah ar ar" to one and other as she stumbles her way around. Speaking in her own baby language which none of us could understand. Yet she brings smile to everyone. The smile that connects ALL. Everyone is been turned on by her.

That's the truely pure action with no hidden motive. A begining of new life that what I saw in her. A begining of a long winding road ahead of her. One that's she has to walk and learn her way with each growing moment.

While at my home, I saw the ending phase of a human life. Old, sicken with unbearable pain that most of us couldn't escape from when we reach that stage. Which eventually surrender ourselves to the darkness.

"When there's a begining, there's always an ending."
On the note of that, I'm filled with mixed emotion.