Beginning . . .

A new beginning?
Guess so, cos I just settle a problem that keep bothering me. Yet I do feel sad. Letting go has not been easy. Not as easy as 1 2 3. I've learnt something from my trip that is to "Smile".

Big baby told me to smile. No matter what always smile because it can help to ligthen things and change for better. I'm still learning. Though the heavy load is gone, don't know why I can't bring myself to smile.

This morning I saw a few cats. Oh my. . .I start to think of my cats. I really miss them. Those naughty cats that gives me headache. Haha. But now my duty is handover. I can rest assured knowing that they are under good care.

Right now, I need to nurse myself back to health soon and though learn to smile from the heart. Only then happiness will follow.

Sick & Down

Been sick for 1 week already. Feverish and weak since last friday till now. Up and down the temperature like the weather, rainy and sunny. Well, it scares me cos I really wonder what's wrong with me. Took almost all kind of medicine to bring down the feverish yet it just rise to 38/39 in no time. Scare my poor mum too. Haiz. . .Two days mc rest at home. Why it always happen on the beginning month when I've works to complete? What's wrong with me?

I'm sick and down. Unhappy. Unhappy @ work. I don't know what to do. Perhaps that's not the place I should stay anymore. . . Well nothing is forever. Trying to comfort myself. But still down. . . Confuse. Confuse over myself.

Stupid fever burn my brain, can't think clearly right now.
Haiz.

I'm Back

Yup I'm back. . . Feeling weird and blur. I've finally completed my 3 months journey. Something that I've dreamed of but never realise it can happened.

A blessing in disguise, 1 of my luggage has being mis-shipped to another country during transit so I ended up have to make a report at the lost and find office. This poor guy carried the heavy luggage up till my 4th floor house breathlessly. Which I'm lucky that I saved my energy to carry it. Wow. . .

While it's ups and downs for me during this period. An unforgetable experience but a valueable trip for me. . . cos I learnt a lot. =) So it's now for me to adapt back slowly. . Been sleeping for almost the whole day the next day after I touched down Singapore. Sleep till almost noon, then slept again after my lunch till evening and can u imagine I manage to sleep in the later night till dawn?! Sound horrible to me. . . This is the 1st time I slept like this and walking blurly to whatever my destination and get things done. Mmmm. . . it took me 3 days plus to adapt back but now I'm back to work.

Working life once again though I'm grateful to have a break. New faces at work and my dear yaya report last day for work today. Gonna miss her. Everything looks quite stable now at work and me doing trouble shooting at the moment but I'm not sure should I continue this job. . .

Oh. . . many people said I've become thin. Which is true but I hope to stay this way, tired of finding the right clothing to wear. Haha.

Mmm . . . 1 conclusion:"Whatever happened will pass us sooner or later, everything goes on. The world won't stop for you." What logic is that? Something to think on . . .

Countdown

Countdown to 2 more days.
Consider all pack and ready except to bring my heart along.
Left a few more pieces to dump into my bag.

Thinking back when I start planning this trip, it's way few months back. This past few months has it's up and downs. It's not easy. Cos who knows what'll stop you in the track. I can't see what's in front of me but I know what's happened in the past. Not turning back le, but looking uncertainly what's ahead. Just want to do some thinking peacefully. . .

Mmm . . . a bit waste - won't bring wearing the set of clothings that I bought during the shopping trip with the Twin Yeo. Still it's okay, I'll still get to wear it. Office is bit messy and worried cos all are new faces. What to do? Pray they will make it through.

My friend KY, envy he went overseas study for 1.5 years. Nice. . . mmm . . . . smile, too tired to smile. Too tired to do anything.

Well, saying goodbye. (*^_^*) It's been some time I use this smiley face. May the rainbow shine and last after the storm.

Uploading

Whew. . . Finally manage to get the pictures upload. For once I'm proud of my moblie camera. Muak thanks to it that I manage capture those precious scenes. Though I still dislike it because it can't Zoom nor it's able to capture sharp picture since it's a Walkman means for playing music. Well . . . at this moment I shall stick to this till I find a suitable camera.

Ping

Ping A Frog in Search of a New Pond
By Stuart Avery Gold

It's a book that similar to Who Moved My Cheese? I do like that book. Right now still have reading it. I hope I can finish in time and truly understand it because it's pretty "Chim". Haha. Right now I keep fearing that I can't finish all my stuff. Not enough time. "Time is not on my side." This sentence sounds familar, spoken by someone I knew. . . All I know is hopefully whatever I did will be fine.

Some of the quotes from this book "Ping"

The most meaningful journey to take is the one within.

Who can guess that precise moment when your world is going to change?

It's hard to let go when fear lurks inside you.

Be ever mindful of the Way, paying attention to the seen and the unseen.

If the path you travel has no obstacles, it leads nowhere.

Attitude equals altitude

An instant of realization makes its home in a quiet mind.

Listen. Can you hear it? Can you hear the voice of your heart?

To be awake to choice is to be awake to transformation.

To change the future, one needs only to change the present, and that anyone's real future begins with a triumphant commitment to the present.

Article

Came across an article recently in the newspaper. . .

A grow up lady who did some gumbling about life when she went back home to her mum. Her mum put 3 pots of water on to the stove and put on the fire. 1st pot - her mum put a hard solid carrot. 2nd pot - an egg. 3rd pot - coffee beans.

After an hour of boiling. The 1st pot which contain the carrot turn soft. The egg in the 2nd pot has turned into hard boiled egg. The 3rd pot - a nice brew pot of coffee.

Her mum then ask her daughter which she wants to be in life? To turn into a soft and weak as the carrot or Harden like the egg? Or to turn into a favourly brewed coffee?

In life, there's many things we have to go through. Whatever the outcome is - we can choose ourselves. Which do you want to be?