Play

Sudden have the urge to play.
Yes just simply play. Do things which interest me and indugle myself in any activities but work. Just wanna take my mind off from the unhappiness stuff which just keep happening.

Play Play Play - normally I don't play anymore but yet this thought comes to me. To go wandering and see the world. Perhaps it helps to open my sight to the surrounding which I'm so fortunate to have what I've currently and not to complain anymore.

Should I continue to work or no? A question that revolve in my mind. I definately need to work but . . .

Office Wave

My immediate boss left the company. . .Surprise? Yes. Cos no notice or anything and just being his last day yesterday.

Reality Reality. . .That's the life of working. Right now, I'm just waiting for the new boss to come in. This will be my 5th immediate boss. Working for 2 and 1/2 years, I've seen many comes and goes. No one stay long. If not for Ms Yeo, I don't think I will staying too. Been adapt to it but still at times, it can be frustrating when too many things need to be done yet no one can really help but making it worse when you tried to seek their help. Selfishness? Yup, can't blame. If you dont protect yourself, no one will cos they'll just think you're easy to bully.

Sad, I still feel it. Becos of yesterday and now this happening thing - I feel a bit numb. Guess I shouldn't be indulge in my emotion for so long.

Irony

How irony life is. . .

Looking back the past two years plus, so many things have happened. . . Yet it's all over and some things have just start anew. Time have passed, where we see each other more clearly of who's character. What we actually seek and how we act on it. . .

Regret? I do cos because misery has been created becos of me. Just dont wish to hurt anyone. Cos I know the pain one has to bear. If only human beings ain't selfish and ain't so emotionally. Things would be in peace.

Away

Been away over the weekend. Main intention is to rest. Yes I manage to get some rest, thanks to my dear mum who's willing to accompany this trip. Thank you Mum cos actually I never dream of us making this trip all by our own. Dangerous? Risk? Yup everything comes with a risk. Yet if you have the heart to do it, nothing will be obstruction to you.

Haiz. . . well well, rest physical but mentally something still bothers me. Can't get it out of my mind. Never mind. Oh last friday that show really scare me. Been long long time didn't watch horror show. That's really scare me. Haha. But still there's meaning to it. It also make me realise how fragile human being lives can be. How human being can be treat as things. . . Where eventually when you're dead, it means nothing. Nothing at all.

Treasure. . .

解脱 By Ah Mei

爱是不夜城 回忆像星辰 热泪越沸腾 我越感觉有点冷 变了心的人 越想越伤人 枯坐到清晨 阳光替房间开了灯 想 若结局一样 又何苦再想 伤 若让人成长 我为什么怕分手的伤 解脱是肯承认这是个错 我不应该还不放手 你有自由走我有自由好好过 解脱是懂擦干泪看以后 找个新方向往前走 这世界辽阔 我总会实现一个梦 想 像结局一样 又何苦再想 伤 若让人成长 我为什么怕分手的伤 心里有一种渴望勇敢的念头 不要爱我的人再担心我 解脱是肯承认这是个错 我不应该还不放手 你有自由走我有自由好好过 解脱是懂擦干泪看以后 找个新方向往前走 这世界辽阔 我总会实现一个梦

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Recently so much things have happened. The Sunday event, the exchange, the busy at work, little things that come along the way. . .

Unsure how to decribe the emotion i'm going through. But what's most impt now is really to pick myself up and move forward. To be stronger than ever and change myself . . . Time is cruel, once gone, it will never be back again. Don't really wish to miss out the precious time now. So much can affect us -human being but if only we can be unmove . . .

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Easy Difficult

Easy is to get a place in someone's address book.
Difficult is to get a place in someone's heart.

Easy is to judge the mistakes of others.
Difficult is to recognize our own mistakes.

Easy is to talk without thinking.
Difficult is to refrain the tongue.

Easy is to hurt someone who loves us.
Difficult is to heal the wound.

Easy is to forgive others.
Difficult is to ask for forgiveness.

Easy is to set rules.
Difficult is to follow them.

Easy is to dream every night.
Difficult is to fight for a dream.

Easy is to admire a full moon.
Difficult to see the other side.

Easy is to stumble with a stone.
Difficult is to get up.

Easy is to enjoy life every day.
Difficult to give its real value.

Easy is to pray every night.
Difficult is to find God in small things.

Easy is to promise something to someone.
Difficult is to fulfill that promise.

Easy is to say we love.
Difficult is to show it every day.

Easy is to criticize others.
Difficult is to improve oneself.

Easy is to make mistakes.
Difficult is to learn from them.

Easy is to weep for a lost love.
Difficult is to take care of it so as not to lose it.

Easy is to think about improving.
Difficult is to stop thinking and put it into action.

Easy is to think bad of others.
Difficult is to give them the benefit of the doubt.

Easy is to receive.
Difficult is to give.

Easy is to keep friendship with words.
Difficult is to keep it with meaning.

Easy to read this.
Difficult to follow.

Lost / Gain

Today I lost and gain something today.

Happiness

If only happiness can be this simple.

I made this remark when I saw a person can be so happy just be grated to visit a place she wish to go. So Simple request. Is it because my wish is too high to acheive? Is it because I'm asking for the impossible?

Someone asked me: How do you define happiness? Being things in a simple way or able to obtain things you want? I'm speechless when the person asked me. Cos I think I know why. Only now do I realise cos all along I'm asking for the impossible which not only makes myself miserable but those who cares around me. . .

Disappointed, failure yup that what's I felt. Creation of happiness is behold of myself.

Reblog

I wanna to soar
I wanna fly
To Be who I'm really is. . .

Recreate my blog again. Perhaps sometime too many memories ain't a good thing afterall. Too much reminder. Another pass by, left 2 months for year 2007. Counting down to Christmas though it means busy period for company. Still I always look forward to christmas, do hope 1 day there's an opportunity to have a white christmas.

My dear gal recently drop a "bomb" in office, making a buzz for everyone. No one bear to see her leave cos she is a good good gal. Really, everyone can witness to it. Today Mr Marco comes by. He looks slightly change, hair color back to black and lose weight. He changes company again. Really dare to move about, but still not matter which company he goes - it still in the same industry (Drinks).

Mmm. . .me slightly down since yesterday because of the things I see. Though there's the saying assumption is not always the truth. Perhaps I've seen too many reality recently. Things that happen behind the closed door. Fake and real so hard to differ them. Till I'm a bit lost in between. Who to trust? Who to believe in?