30thNov "Joyous"

Today is a joyous day because my friend he has let go. =)
It has been 2 years since his wife passed away. Suffering alone with no one else who can shares his burden. His son who lives far away from him, only focus his attention on his Japanese Girlfriend and even has plan of migrating. His poor father who has just lost his wife and now worried about his son. A person who has carried his burdens and grieving the loss of loved one. That he even has thoughts of committing suicide. Many people console and encourage him but he can’t let go. Till today, he received precious words of encouragement – that I’m sure he will remember for life. I’m very happy for him. Because he had finally let go of the past. He finally find his direction in life. A hellish of 2 years suffering is over. I’m sure this trip will be a memorable one for him. May he went back home with a new life, a new goal, a new him awaiting ahead.

How true it is that there’s a rainbow after the storm. Can u see the beautiful rainbow? I did. I haven’t felt such pure joy for a long time. To see someone who has been in despair and helpless to a new person who has found his strength and direction. I’m really really happy for him. Thinking of this, I asked myself the same question too:” Have I let go?” =)

Remember “You can do it. You can overcome it.”

Typing

Been do typing current, trying to complete it but yesterday I just discover that I've a lot to amend. Oh dear. . .it's like from the start to the end again. Hope I can finish on time.

Never surrender because you never try you'll never know.
Only then you can chase for your goal or aim in your life.
To give up it's easier
But to preverse that's the determination needed
Things always come and goes
Nothing really stay even if they do, it'll still perish in the end
So let things be

Haven't been doing any flower arrangement lately. Wonder will I forget how to arrange when I pick up the flowers? Haha. Perhaps ask the flowers to arrange themselves in the vase. Mmmm . . . people will be thinking I'm crazy.

While guess sometime in life you've to be crazy cos taking things too seriously will never do any good. Let go, Let go, only then you'll find something else.

Moving

Playing safe is probably the most unsafe thing in the world. You cannot stand still. You must go forward.

My friend's nick that had me going on sometime. Because what the statement is true. The best thing to do is move forward. Because stopping down there doesn't help anyone. Only making it worse sometime.

Limit

There's always a limit that we can do
Because we're human being?
Because we give ourselves excurses?

Limits
Boundaries
Are we able to cross it?
The real problem lies with?

=)

Beginning . . .

A new beginning?
Guess so, cos I just settle a problem that keep bothering me. Yet I do feel sad. Letting go has not been easy. Not as easy as 1 2 3. I've learnt something from my trip that is to "Smile".

Big baby told me to smile. No matter what always smile because it can help to ligthen things and change for better. I'm still learning. Though the heavy load is gone, don't know why I can't bring myself to smile.

This morning I saw a few cats. Oh my. . .I start to think of my cats. I really miss them. Those naughty cats that gives me headache. Haha. But now my duty is handover. I can rest assured knowing that they are under good care.

Right now, I need to nurse myself back to health soon and though learn to smile from the heart. Only then happiness will follow.

Sick & Down

Been sick for 1 week already. Feverish and weak since last friday till now. Up and down the temperature like the weather, rainy and sunny. Well, it scares me cos I really wonder what's wrong with me. Took almost all kind of medicine to bring down the feverish yet it just rise to 38/39 in no time. Scare my poor mum too. Haiz. . .Two days mc rest at home. Why it always happen on the beginning month when I've works to complete? What's wrong with me?

I'm sick and down. Unhappy. Unhappy @ work. I don't know what to do. Perhaps that's not the place I should stay anymore. . . Well nothing is forever. Trying to comfort myself. But still down. . . Confuse. Confuse over myself.

Stupid fever burn my brain, can't think clearly right now.
Haiz.